又發作 好辛苦

今午在街上鼻敏感嚴重發作,要立即去買藥食.

很久未試過這樣嚴重,好辛苦,好驚!

兜兜轉轉

~~~絲絲點點計算　偏偏相差太遠 兜兜轉轉~~~

Pressure

I still have a lot of pressure but no one can help me.

What motivates you to create?

"What motivates you to create?
In a down market when things are not selling well?
When you are tired?
When life makes you busy?"

Come across the above questions in another blog. Very interesting questions and I try to answer them honestly. I believe it can help myself to understand my own creative routes more. Thus, I hope it can improve my future creations. Of course, every person has his/her own creative routes. What works for me may not work for other people and vice versa.

What motivates you to create?
- an interesting topic
- new production method
- new material
- an open-minded client that encourage creativity
- a comfortable environment with relatively less limit
- a chance to showcase the final product
- interaction with other people
- interaction with environment
- others: movie, music, books and other type of reading, travel, internet
- with more available resources

(I want to put "good payment" as well, but after think about it carefully, I take it out. Good payment will encourage me to pay more attention to a job and the outcome may only doing what the client intended to do. However, that may not boost creativity.)


What motivates you to create in a down market when things are not selling well?
In this case, be realistic, control budget is important. Spending $1,000 does not mean it is more creative than spending $100. Creative ideas may need to compromise with reality. If things are not selling well, try new outlets, try new pricing policy, try re-package the product, try add value to the product.... No golden rules, but there must be a way to make them fit the market better.


What motivates you to create when you are tired?
That's really a big problem. When my health condition is not good, for sure it will affect creativity. Have a good rest and save energy for work is my only advice. Consult a doctor and take medicine and do some treatment when it is necessary.

If it is not related to illness or injury, go out and have a walk can help.

A tired body or a tired mind can slow down creativity but will not kill it totally. The point is when you cannot do something due to illness or injury, don't think that it is the end of the world. Think of some creative ways or create something to adapt the situation.

What motivates you to create when life makes you busy?
From my experience, I can be very creative when I am very busy. As far as I can manage my work well, there is no conflicts. I have a note book to take down some ideas that come to my mind suddenly so I won't forget them later.

一點觸動

一隻小貓
一天早上經過附近生果檔，有位女士正在把一隻小貓放進一個發泡膠箱，然後老闆娘說：「先放在這裡，看看有沒有愛貓的人經過把她收養吧。」我看看那小貓，是灰黑色的，再想起多年前在街上聽到貓叫聲，在路邊發現了一隻白色帶黑點、未開眼的小貓，然後同情心突發的找來了一個紙盒收養她，結果兩天後她死了；再看看我眼前的小貓，有點依依地離去。

第二天經過生果檔，小貓不見了。

一句無奈話
是醫院的探病時間，剛好是吃晚飯時間，工作人員要記錄每個病人的食量，媽媽旁邊的女士吃得很少，工作人員離開後，她自言自語說：「如果我可以像其他人吃得下那麼多便好了。」原來只要喝得下一碗湯、食得下一碗粥，已經可以是一個恩賜。

一陣心酸
朋友的表姊入了醫院，短期內做了多次手術，在生死之間徘徊，聽到也感到一陣心酸。而事情的起因只是手指有點皮膚病，然後看了不同的醫生；在懷疑斷錯症、吃錯藥的情況下，輾轉惡化，體重驟降到得八十多磅；人生為什麼會這樣無常？

那麼，當有病的時候，怎樣去判斷信一個醫生還是不信一個醫生？

放心了

今天早上還很擔心，現在放心了很多；健康真的無價，也謝謝物理治療師。

I will recover

七月

這個月很重要，如果康復不理想，八月便要再見醫生，也許要做磁力共震，然後再會怎樣，我也很難預知。所以七月除了做治療，便是減少不必要的活動，多點休息。

一切由一條蟲開始

去年，冬天，寒冷；一天，行山，忽然感到手上有異物，一看，是條蟲，本能地把牠撥開，就這樣，太急，太突然，太冷，太僵，可能用錯力；然後，感到肩部有點聲音，有點揪緊。小事，慢慢會好的；當時，如是想。

oooooooooo

現在，想到兩句金句：

每個問題背後都有一份禮物；

休息是為了走更遠的路。

oooooooooo

不知道這條蟲給我的禮物是什麼？

也許牠令我體會到什麼叫痛；
也許牠令我知道什麼才叫做休息。

更遠的路是什麼？

痛的時候想不到；
腫的時候想不到；
痹的時候想不到；
驚的時候想不到；
食藥的時候想不到；
食完藥時候也想不到；
睡不著的時候想不到；
睡著了的時候也想不到；
休息的時候想不到；
沒時間休息的時候也想不到；
......

此刻，只想到：

更遠的路應該容不下一條蟲。

又想，想不到竟然不是因為個腦出問題，而是因為隻手出問題；隻手出問題，又牽引到其他地方出問題。如果每個問題背後都有一份禮物，我應該有很多禮物。

再想，更遠的路是應該由雙腳走出來的，我對腳沒問題；可是，我還是要休息，卻想不到更遠的路是什麼？

oooooooooo

聽著張國榮的奔向未來日子，忽然，歌詞變成：

......有蟲，冇蟲，不要問我......
......有蟲，有條蟲，不得已......
......無淚......無語......

也許我的腦袋已開始出問題。

rest

All I can do is rest and hope can recover soon.

tomorrow morning

Tomorrow morning, I'll see another physiotherapist. Hope everthing will be fine.

it is not right time yet

To reject to do something I really like is as hard as to make a decision to do it. But I just cannot cooperate with people I cannot trust.

很恐怖的加數

(7+14+14)+(28+28+14)=105

這是甚麼？

是最近吞下的藥丸數目：


所以當有天忽然有點好轉，便去買了以下兩樣東西慶祝：


不要問我為什麼是這兩樣東西，也不要問我它們之間有什麼關係；可能當一個人痛到short short o地，便會做出些反常行為。

接下來便是很恐怖的乘數：

(一次物理治療費 $XXX) x (XX次) = $XXXX

[轉載] 發人心醒的一段文字

人有時不可信賴、有時極端自私，儘管如此，你還是得寬恕他們。你對人和藹，人們卻以為你別有用心，儘管如此，你還是得和善待人。今天你所做的事，到了明天可能已被忘懷，儘管如此，你還是要以助人為樂。你雖然心胸開闊，也可能敗在心胸狹窄的小人手下，儘管如此，你還是得當個心胸開闊的君子。你總是覺得一無所有，儘管如此，你還是要把最心愛的東西與大家分享。

— 德雷沙修女總部 (Blessed Teresa) 壁文

oooooooooooooooooooo

今午偶然讀了以上文字，心情平靜了。

謝謝你的幫忙

無言感激.

又想起柴九哥的金句

整理公司中的雜物時，發現了這塊紙版，看看年份，竟然是十年前的。

這只是個商業味很重的獎，可是也好奇再上這家公司的網站看看，但已經面目全非了，以為此公司已不存在，後來再search一次，卻又在另一個相近的網址找到，但業務性質已和當年不太一樣。那時一同得獎的還有一位網頁設計師及一位建築師，不知道他們現在又如何？